The clouds were low; silver-grey with blushes of violet to the west, and an intense blue-grey to the east. It was 1994, and spring was about to bless us with some needed rain.
“The garden will love it,” Rosemarie said. I agreed, though not with the same hard-won conviction, after all, it was she who mostly worked our garden.
It was a large garden filled with plenty of delicious raspberries, gooseberries, currants of all sorts, and most of the vegetables we needed for the year ahead. For Rosemarie, the garden was her labor of love; her way of connecting to life at its purest, and to who she is at heart.
It was a quiet day. I was taking a break from a new painting I was working on, Rosemarie was finishing some planting, and the ravens were dive-bombing Jones, our black cat.
Watching how Jones responded was comical. He was convinced that he was the predator and they were the prey. But the Ravens were fearless. To them, the world was theirs and so they attacked and claimed space. Our poor little Jones became short-circuited by the gap between his instincts and the situation. He sat hugging the ground for a while, frozen in fear, his jaw quivering as he tried to make threatening noises. He then ran off, ears flattened tight back, eyes big like saucers.
It was intriguing to watch the dramas being played out on our small patch of earth in the middle of town. All of the creatures that graced our property had their own stories, that through time and observation they shared with us.
There was the Raven with the bad leg and injured wing, and the Red-Winged Blackbird with the bald head; the only one that remained in the area from the fifty or so that over-wintered with us. Was he an outcast? The odd dog wanders over to say hello, or to Rosemarie’s dismay, to relieve himself in the loose black soil.
Our beautiful one third of an acre became for us, a crucible, a microcosm of nature’s cycles and dramas. We chased the dogs, the dogs chased the cats, the cats chased just about anything smaller than themselves, and of course the ravens chased Jones. All of them playing between fear and desire.
“Would you like to go for a hike?” Rosemarie asked between streams of quiet thought. “Sure, I guess I can finish the painting later. It might rain though” I said. We had our share of relationship challenges in the recent past and we were still feeling the weight of it. Did I really want to go for a hike in the bush, in the rain? “That’s okay; it’s good for the garden, so it might be good for us as well,” Rosemarie answered, sensing what I might be feeling.
A few moments later then, the sky a bit darker with vertical columns of misty grey; rain in the distance, we set out in our camper van. We called her Betsy.
Betsy had been our vehicle on many adventures. Settling into her seats was like coming home to the magic of ourselves. All of our worries and frustrations would dissolve into her, as we focused through her windshield on where we were, and where we envisioned going. Communicating with one another was always easy and relaxed in Betsy.
After a brief discussion of where to hike, we decided on a mountain park; a large wild area at the edge of town. There, steep trails lead to beautiful high places where the breeze is always fresh, the grass is always golden, and the lake below is always an iridescent blue shimmer.
On this day though we would not hike to those highest places. Our goal was only about 40 minutes uphill. I wanted to show Rosemarie the eagle’s nest I had discovered the previous week.
Rain was falling gently when we arrived, and the few people that were in the area were leaving. Donning an old oiled canvas hat to keep the rain off, we began hiking up to the point where we could make our own way off-trail to the nest. The rain made the ground less stable and the rocks slippery as if coated with a thin film of oil.
Being careful not to destroy the lichen as we stepped, knowing how fragile it is, we slowly climbed, stopping now and then to fully soak in the beauty that we were immersed in.
The rain was beginning to fall more heavily, and we were in some fairly thick brush at times. We could have become annoyed I suppose, but somehow the rain had a fine quality to it. It felt good.
“The people that left when it began raining; they missed all of this” I thought. When it rains in the bush it can feel somehow lonely, but it rewards you with all the saturated colors; the green that is greener than green. And the aromas that the rain releases are to die for; the musky smell of the grasses, the pine and fir needles, the wet rock, the soaked soil.
We did arrive at the Eagle’s nest, but they were no where in sight. It didn’t matter though. We rested under the shelter of a large Ponderosa Pine not far from their lair, our backs against the broad sturdy trunk, our behinds nestled into a springy layer of golden-brown needles, warm with the energy of the earth.
We fell immersed in a profound and natural silence; a pure communion, punctuated only by the rain, and the small trickling sound of a nearby stream making its way through moss and rock, on its path to the blue lake below.
In those twenty minutes or so we were completely together, in sync, and in love. All of our differences dissolved. We sat in that inner silence, sinking deeply into nature’s embrace. Such a calm and beautiful power washed through us under that old tree. We didn’t have to say a word. I doubt that we even could. Later, we simply agreed to get out more often together — rain or shine.
Nature is a clear and powerful teacher. She is always there with a timely lesson. We set out to go for a simple hike, to take a break, to see the eagles. We ended up immersing ourselves in the richness of a rain-soaked mountainside, reconfirming our commitment not to be fair-weather friends with nature; to be with her only in her sunshine. And we silently confirmed with each other that we would not be fair-weather friends and lovers.
Nature showed us, with richness, grace, and natural ease, a simple path to happiness. She reminded us that no matter what our circumstances are, they carry hidden gifts that we receive when we fully accept those circumstances, and remain present in each moment, with each step we take.
On that day in the rain, we discovered a deeper level of beauty that is still with us today.